If every human being in this world knew that there was no hell and only heaven existed, i am 100% sure we are all going to take turn blowing our head off with .45 calibre Glock.
Death is always a haunting subject for human. The mystery what will happen after we die never excites us. A detective story excites us. We eventually will figure out the mysterious puzzle. The story becomes slightly horror when the story ends and we never get the answer of the mysterious puzzle. The unknown scares us.
That is why I think people who do not fear death, but rather welcome it, can be considered to be brave people. I’m not celebrating death or even suicide. We have to realize that there are some people in this world have reached their lowest point in their life and try to give up their life. While some of them also have reached their lowest point and think, “Aarrgghh.. F**k it with my life. I want to meet my creator. Maybe i can give Him a nice punch on the face.”
I don’t support suicide. The beauty of every living thing is our relentless effort to avoid dying and more enjoying life. I’m a strong proponent of this; “Everyone has the right to commit suicide. We, the pro-life supporter, just have to hope that it is the dumbest one who blow their head off. Yes, blow their head off, not blow a freaking bomb vest.”
For people that is the extreme opposite of people with bomb vest i mention before, you also have the right to commit suicide. Who are we to judge your choice? We, pro-life supporter, are just a selfish people that can’t stand watching people commit suicide just because our higher-than-thou morality says so. In the end, there is nothing we can do to ease the pressure of your life. We won’t pay your debt. we couldn’t bring back your ex-girlfriend or make your crush falling in love with you. We don’t care about your problem. We just don’t want you to die so we don’t have to shed our tears.
I can’t solve your problem. I can recommend you great songs. These songs are not ordinary song. These songs are about a desire to suicide, a heartbreak, a loneliness, inability to feel love, things that become reason you want to leave this world. Yes, i am recommending you that kind of song. Why? I think maybe by listening to song that is relevant and understand your life somehow can make you feel alive even just for 3 to 5 minutes. I listen these songs on Youtube. I often read the comment on the video how this depression song not make you want to shorten your lifespan, rather enjoying it longer. I believe human have a tendency to revel in their sadness or pain. Armada’s latest song, Asal Kau Bahagia, is played for more than 100 million times. We indulge sadness.
Here are the songs i recommend to listen to when you are at the lowest point of your life, when there are no one you can’t or don’t want to share to, when you feel you want to stop walking. Rest assured, Armada’s song will not be on the list.
- The Smiths – Asleep
I’m tired and i want to go to bed
I instantly loved this song when i listened it for the first time when the song was played in a movie, The Perks of Being Wallflower. The lyric and the piano meets and are destined to be sung together. There are some song that you can replace the melody or the lyric and it will still be terrific song. This one is different. It’s like the melody of piano itself wrote the lyric. You can remove the lyric and you can still feel that whoever plays this piano is tired and want to sleep.
- Nirvana – You know you’re right
I will move away from here. You won’t be afraid of fear
I once sang this song at the karaoke club. A friend of mine read the lyric displayed on the screen. It was the first time she listened to this Nirvana song. She somehow understands what Kurt Cobain feels. You know what the funny part was? The Karaoke club didn’t play the original song. It played the song in which the music arrangement was changed to typical Karaoke club music. It was like the song was played by wedding band, a low budget one. You didn’t feel the grunge or the rocking sound yet my friend still able to feel the weight of the song. After i finished singing the song, she, who didn’t sing the song, just stared and almost lost her appetite to do a karaoke.
- Kendrick Lamar – Sing About Me, I’m Dying of Thirst
Promise that you will sing about me, promise that you wil sing about me
The song was played by Gaslamp Killer as a closing song in his DJ set at The Boiler Room London. Boy, i was hooked. I didn’ even pay attention to the lyric. Later, i searched the song and read the lyric. Kendrick lamar talks about anything in this song. You can feel his anger, fear and sadness.
- Suicide Boys – All of their song
It’s not fair, i found love, it made me say that get back, you’ll never see daylight, if i’m not strong, it just might.They figure me a dead motherf**ker, but i’m just a motherf**ker that want to be dead.
The name of the band itself already consists suicide word. What else can i say?
- Flying Lotus – Never Catch Me
I can see the darkness in me and it’s quite amazing. Life and death is no mystery and I wanna taste it
I think when Flying Lotus arranged and wrote the music, he just wanted to make a simple music that really sounds great. Until Kendrick Lamar stepped in and spat that words, giving this song a meaning to reach deeply our soul. The flow is buttery and no hesitation. Every word is on point. The lyric is dark and inviting our empathy, yet still sounds strong and powerful. Only Kendrick Lamar can deliver this sermon.
- The Jam – Carnation
Touch my heart and feel winter. Hold my hand and be doomed forever
This song is the least sad song on my list. This song wouldn’t fit for a sad, death or even suicide scene in a movie. Depression, tired and lonliness can be a reason for someone to kill themselves . This song caters the need to some people that have different reason why they want to leave this world. Kind of people that think they don’t deserve to live in this world because they are horrible person, a heartless, or a plain cold.
- 10cc – I’m Not In Love
I’m not in love. So don’t forget it. It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
Actually, it’s a love song. I just like the music. Try to play this song when you want to jump from a roof or hang your neck. This song can be a great soundtrack for your death scene. I just believe that when the song is played and finished, you will think, “ hmmm.. nope. Not today. I will try again next time.”
- John lennon – Genius Is Pain
genius is pain, genius is pain, genius is pain, genius is pain, genius is pain!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! OHHHHH!!
It’s not a sad song. It’s not a love song. It’s not even John Lennon song. It’s a parody song. This song is sung by Tony Hendra doing impersonation of John Lennon with lyric based on John Lennon interview. I listened the music and read the lyric. It’s a beautiful song. I almost believed that John really sang this song. Then i read the comment, some people found the song hilarious because they knew that the song was for humor only. In spite of the humor intention, this song packed with emotion. You want to sing this song at the top your lung with replacing some part of the lyric, making it more relevant to you. John Lennon will be proud to have this kind of music.
I believe there are tons of music that talks about suicide or death i haven’t mentioned. I just want to share music that somehow helped me not falling to that pitch dark of sorrow. I instantly love these songs in the first 5-10 seconds listening. It rekindled the little hope that still resides in me.
I know it sounds freak to write post about suicidal or death-theme song. Has that thought ever crossed my mind? To commit suicide? No. Not a chance. Aside from religion reason, I’m scared of death. Thinking of it sends chills down my spine. I’m a sore loser on this one.
I’m not saying that these songs will likely to help you. Maybe all you need, or we need, is just having a relation to this world. At the moment we can not relate to anything in this world, we don’t have any reason to live longer. I just want to say that even people around you have no significance on your life, these songs prove otherwise. Music helps you in a different way that human can not do.
Armada’s song is played for hundred million times on Youtube. I bet those people prefer to listen Armada’s song played repeatedly for straight 1 hours than share their love story to other people.